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At Khambhat (near Ralaj)

     

In 1896 Shrimad had been in Charotar area on a retreat for 10 weeks. After staying at Kavitha he came to Ralaj. As Lallujiswami came to know about it he thought that since he used to go out of khambhat for natural call, there should be no objection to going a little further up to Ralaj and see Shrimad. As such, he once went towards Ralaj.

On reaching the boundary of the village he sent a message to Ambalalbhai that a monk had been calling him. Accordingly Ambalalbhai came there and asked in a reproaching tone, “Why have you come here without getting the instructions?”

 

Lallujiswami : I am waiting here  for the same of instructions. If you consider it against the commands, I shall go back. Other liberation-seekers are getting  the benefit of Shrimad’s contact, while I am left out. I have come because of the inability to bear the separation.

 

Ambalal: I would not allow you to go back that way: I may have to face the reproach. So let me ask Shrimad in the matter and then do as he directs.

So saying he went to Shrimad and told him about Lallujiswami's arrival. Thereupon Shrimad said, " If Muni is very anxious, I would go to see him and if can feel at ease, let him go back." As Ambalalbhai gave the message to Lallujiswami, he said, "I have to act as directed and am therefore going back."

So saying he left with a heavy heart. On the way tears were flowing from his eyes with the idea that his ill luck did not permit him to see Shrimad. He spent that night with uneasiness.

In the morning he got the news that Shrimad had sent Ambalalbhai , Saubhagbhai and Dungarshibhai from Ralaj to Khambhat. Accordingly Saubhagbhai came to Upashray and told Lallujiswami, "Shrimad would come to you and he has asked me to convey something to you alone."

As such, both of them went to Ambalalbhai's home and Saubhagbhai gave him the message of Shrimad. Thereafter he conveyed the Mantra of 'Sahajatmaswaroop Paramguru'(The supreme Guru abides at ease within the self), and said that Shrimad had directed to turn five rosaries of mantra everyday.

Lallujiswami was overcome with joy and tears of delight came in his eyes. He requested Saubhagbhai to convey the Mantra to other monk also, but the later said that he was not authorized to do so.  

 

After a few days Shrimad came from Ralaj to Khambhat. Lallujiswami and five other monks went to receive him. Shrimad called all the six monks in a lonely place at Vadva. They bowed to him and sat in front of him. Lallujiswami found it hard to bear the pangs of separation and he considered his Sthanakwasi gard as an obstacle. Since his heart was overcome, he said "Graceful Lord, please keep me at your service forever, I do not want Mahupatti (piece of cloth tied around the mouth)." So saying he put the Muhapatti in front of Shrimad. With tears in the eyes and in choking voice he said, "I cannot bear the separation."

On seeing it Shrimad’s delicate heart also was overflowed and tears came in his eyes. After remaining silent for a while he said to Devkaranji, “Give this Muhapatti to Lalluji and let him keep it for the present.”

 

Shrimad stayed at Vadva for six days, during which many liberation-seekers could get the benefit of his talks. Lallujiswami and those five monks could get the benefit at lonely places. Other monks and the people belonging to the sect criticized the six monks, but they remained very firm in their faith. Moreover, Lallujiswami’s personality was so impressive that the people could not say anything in his presence.

From Vadva Shrimad went to Nadiad, where he composed Atmasidhishashtra. Initially four copies were made, of which one was sent to Lallujiswami with the instructions that he should study it alone, and that it would be helpful to Devkaranji to read it later on. It was, however, mentioned that if Devkaranji was very eager to read it, there would be no objection to his reading in the presence of Lallujiswami, if he firmly decided not to overlook the benevolence of the Saint till the end of life.

Lallujiswami used to go to woods alone and study Atmasidhishastra. In this connection he has mentioned, “My soul was overjoyed to read it and recite some of its stanzas. I felt that there is unique significance in its every line. Regular study if Atmasidhishastra and its contemplation led to internal pleasure. Atmasidhi stayed in my mind while talking to anyone or while understanding any other activity. I always remembered the serene face of Graceful Lord (Shrimad) or the delightful stanzas of Atmasiddhi. I liked nothing else. Everything else remained insignificant. Only the importance of true Guru and his state stayed in my soul.”